🇬🇧 Feeling good

I am brazilian. One of the first songs I learned studying english was Tracy Chapman’s “Baby, can I hold you”. This song talks about how to express feelings through gestures. It’s a beautiful song.

Yesterday I woke up and received a message of “Good morning” from a friend from abroad on my cellphone. The perfect timing, as he sent the message a few minutes before I wake up. The cellphone were on silent mode while I slept. Then another friend sent a video about the September 11, when the twin towers felt down, and about the value of those people we appreciate.

And while I was writing this post, navigating on Facebook while thinking on how to say what is in my mind, I saw a video from that song. 

The simple attitudes of my friends reminded me the day my father died and that I felt I was unable to express my feelings properly, I felt as if I didn’t have expressed well how much I appreciated him. It was on January 2004. And here I am, more than fifteen years later, observing how much I evolved about this matter. I can say “I like you, you’re important to me” from the bottom of my heart and feel completely comfortable about this. To be true, uncomfortable to me is to hide my feelings.

Observing myself and my experiences I noticed people come to me to many things, and when I am the one in need of a helping hand I must go and ask them. Many times I find the help I need. I felt very uncomfortable about having to ask for help for a long while, but considering I help people and I find the support I need, currently I feel grateful. If people don’t notice when I need help, maybe it’s because I look strong. And I am strong, sometimes too much. But to need a help is not weakness. It’s something normal to anyone, even to Robinson Crusoe in that island.

Yesterday was a great day. Friend, you could send me “good morning” messages everyday! 😄 I felt embraced by that simple gesture. 

Nycka, the nomad