🇬🇧 We are what we are

Twenty one years ago I entered this world. In the beginning it was dial up connection to enter, as quick as a lame turtle. The quality of the pictures that time was low, and I think a selfie like today we transfer in an instant would require several minutes or hours to be downloaded that time. 

I was talking with some acquaintances yesterday about this. And one of them told us once he met a girl who told him she was like a younger Patricia Pilar (a famous and beautiful brazilian actress). He had no pictures of the girl and his expectations were too high, and he was sad to observe she really looked like the actress except for one detail: her nose was rough and big.

Then I told him if I were to compare myself with some celebrity everybody knows it would be Angelina Jolie, but with brown eyes and smaller breast. The big eyes, mouth and delicate nose are similar. He told I really look like her. This is easy when you see the picture first. But then I saw a picture of Angelina in the movie “Playing by Heart” and she really was very similar to myself.

Twenty one years ago my self esteem was a newborn but that was really the image I had from myself if I were to compare myself with someone else. Currently I’m satisfied with my own beauty, I appreciate my appearance. It’s not perfect, I can improve some details, but when I look to myself I see a woman who has a beautiful body, a beautiful face and a beautiful mind. A woman who didn’t eat vegetables when she was a child, and now offer to herself beautiful and tasty food, because this beautiful body deserve to be honoured.

I never wanted to look like someone else. I’m proud of the woman I became. Not proud enough to feel comfortable now, as if nothing could be better. There are many rich experiences I still can offer to myself. And step by step I’ll live all the ones I want. We are what we are but we can choose to be each day better than the previous one, to become the best professionals in our fields and to live coherently.

Nycka, the nomad